Saturday, October 23, 2010

God i want to be there


NEW YORK CITY NEW YORK CITY NEW YORK CITY NEW YORK CITY... I can't get over how much I love that city... here's another little fantasy I have once I'm there:
I wake up in the morning and the first thing I see is a single white snowflake fluttering down onto the rail outside. I getup out of bed and step into my slippers. I walk into my closet and run my fingers across all the shirts and coats and jackets and skirts and dresses and pants and everything else. I decide on a cream colored coat, a navy blue knee length dress , and black leggings. I switch out of my slouchy sweatshirt and pajama pants and put on my new outfit. I go intot he bathroom, wash my face and put on mascara and cherry red lipstick then comb through my long dark brown waves. Walk up to the front door slip on my knee high boots and grab my purse and head out the door. I get out onto the street and snow is coming down a little harder nowi take out my purse and out on my chasmere black gloves and begin to walk to the coffe shop. I get in and the smell of mocha , lattes, and subtle hints of cinnamon hits my nose. Its warm in here, i get up to the counter and order a caremal machiotto ( however you spell it) with a sprinkle of cinnamon and an espresso shot. i get my coffe and walk out of the shop , the cold once again hits me once again, i walk down the street not knowing excatly where im going but i usually never do, as im strolling along the shop windows, something cathes my eye... its the cherry red coat that i always ebvisioned in my head when i pictured New York city . I have to go into the store. I get in and the coat is hung beautifully on the faceless mannequin, I ask the store lady to help me get the coat and she takes it off and rings it up for me, she wraps it up and sticks it into a glossy white bag with the stores logo on it and hands it over to me. Now I'm back to walking and I'm in Times Square, I notice a bookstore and run right to it . The smell of the little coffe shop and new books hits and i start browsing, I pick out a love story and buy that too. I keep on walking and Walking and get to a little breakfast lounge with chairs to sit and read, i sit down and dig into my new book, i read and read for hours until I look up at the clock and its time for lunch, i gather up my stuff and call my best freinnd to meet her for lunch at a fancy little restraunt . we meet upand order breadsticks and soup and salads ( it wasn't olive garden though..) we talk for an hour and then she joins me for more walking around, we shop for a little and browse in some antique stores, then we walk past the broadway theatre and I notice a Marquee that reads " TONIGHT ONLY HALEY HUDDLESTON IN WICKED" ... I KNOW HER! I ask her if she wants to go and she agrees! We head back to my apartment and hang out ofr a while until we see the clock and it says its 6:00 , the show starts at 9 and we decided to start getting ready, she tooka shower and fixed her hair, i start picking out outfits for tonight . I decide on a short black dress with a sequined bust and floaty bottom. She decides on one of my silky , sheeny white dresses and we both choose a pair of heels. WE ARE READY. I grab my new cherry red coat and she borrows my long black silk coat and we head out the door... flash forward... were sitting inour seats and the curtains fall back, the music starts and here comes Haley! Ill talk to her after the show, the show starting . God I love my city!

Sunday, September 26, 2010

Trying to make the mirror happy

I can't make it happy, why can't I look past my flaws
Why do i see everyone as gorheous , but I see myself as the opposite
I am WRONg , please help me realize that
Im sick of trying to make the mirror happy, It never is

Saturday, August 28, 2010

Hair down, no makeup, dancing to owl city with my best friend in the park... I like today:)


Its days like this , when I like living, when I haveno worries
Its days when I'm with my best friend ... that I dont care what I look like, I dont care if i say something weird or stupid, I dont care that I sing like a walrus ( cause you do too:)) I just dont care
It's days like today... when I know you're my best friend
KLJ, Your the most amazing friend anyone can ever have

Thursday, August 26, 2010

Its on infinite reapeat


They are infinite repeat. I want those memories GONE! I was such a jerk to you.. i remember your face when i said that to you.. you looked as if Your entire world had been blown apart and you didnt have any happy anymore... I didnt realize it at the time... but that face you made... well that made me change who I was. I never wanted to make another person look so defeated as you. Even though I have changed ... that face you made... Its on infinite repeat. I cannot get it out and its slowly killing me inside. Im sorry. Im sorry for saying that. It wasn't true. You have every right to hate me. But please PLEASE dont! Please find it in your heart to forgive me. Im sorry. Please dont give up your life because i told you too ... i was stupid... the world needs you... God made you for a specific purpose , you were MADE to change this world! Did you know that? God made YOU specifically and uniquley to CHANGE this world! Use the knowledge and talents God gave you.. please find it in your heart to forgive , but i dont expect you to forget, i was too horrible to do that. My friends dont know this, but thats the reason i will apologize 20 times after pretty much everything i say that could possibly be almost taken the wrong way... because i dont wan to their hurt face , i dont want to see them look at me like " the one who ruined my life" I want them to look at me as the person who saved them !!!
Im sorry and I love you

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

The sky poured down today


The sky poured down today
I saw it from my window
And i ran outside
The sky poured down
I twirled,
I ran
I sang
I prayed
I jumped
I laughed
I smiled
I talked to our God
I walked down the street
I played
I loved
I danced in the rain today and fell in love with this world

And you find comfort in the sound


Everybody has one, that one special word, name, place, whatever, that makes you light up at the mere mention of it. I know mine, But whats yours. What makes you happy, comforted, Is it the one your falling for, right out of this sky, can you see it or is it imaginary, think think think... do you have it now? good, now hold on to it and let it hang in your brain , it never leaves your thoughts , are you smiling? If you are ... you've done it right

Monday, August 23, 2010

lover lay down


Why must you go away evrytime we talk , you say your out of time,

well lover lay down and dont go

i just want to see you, but you dont want to see me , you say you miss me like crazy

well then lover lay down and dont go

please <3